i need more days like this. days spent riding bikes and sailing boats with two people who really and truly love me, two people who have never once let me down. the wind was blowing my hair like mad but for once i didn't care, i was just so calm and at peace and one with everything around me. i was fulfilled, i was whole. the conversation i had with sara and the advice melanie gave me was the best part of the whole day. having friends that i feel comfortable with is a first and is definitely a great feeling.

i don't want to accomplish anything today. i want to curl up with a blanket and a good book and some tea and just read my life away until i fall asleep. that would be nice.

i wish i could memorize
the lines of your face
so every time you're away
i'll feel every trace
of your beautiful grace
your perfect being
like seeing god for the first time
raised up to the heavens
when you promised to be all mine
clenched a fist around your heart
to keep it safe from harm
to shade it from this world so cold
i'll always keep you warm darling
i'm the sun illuminating your blackest nights
i'm the sword fighting your toughest fights
and i'd gladly slay
every dragon along the way
if the path led to you
my path always leads to you
you are the sole destination
on each map that i read
the reason for every life i try to lead
and even when i'm not myself
you're at the center of my universe
i spend every day
picking you apart
word by word, verse by verse
and i still don't know what makes you tick
or what you see
in a silly little girl like me
who is just so bold
and never old enough
and entirely too in love with you


i become more mediocre every second. it hurts my head.