i'm terrified for thanksgiving. family get togethers always end badly. this year, it's not just going to be my immediate family. i feel like the entire world is coming.
my mom is bringing her boyfriend. he's the most amazing man she's ever been with and the only one i've ever liked. he's a great guy, he's handsome, a good cook, funny and treats my mom like a queen. will my family see that? no. my grandpa will be too busy getting away from us, my grandma will be too busy trying to avoid the very obvious fact that al is black while making it completely clear that's all that she sees.
i'll hang out with lala and little red (:D!) to avoid the questions i just don't feel like answering. i don't want to talk about school, no i haven't gotten my license, no i don't have a job but yes, i am looking. i'm not a complete deadbeat. i know what i'm doing but i also know that i'm not living up to expectations. i know that nobody will approve. and the biggest question of all - yes, i still like girls. no, amber and i are not together any longer. yes, i'm FINE.
there's bound to be a debate about our new president. maybe even about prop 8. i don't know if i can handle it. i don't know if i'm ready for this.
maybe i should just. stay. home.
my mom is bringing her boyfriend. he's the most amazing man she's ever been with and the only one i've ever liked. he's a great guy, he's handsome, a good cook, funny and treats my mom like a queen. will my family see that? no. my grandpa will be too busy getting away from us, my grandma will be too busy trying to avoid the very obvious fact that al is black while making it completely clear that's all that she sees.
i'll hang out with lala and little red (:D!) to avoid the questions i just don't feel like answering. i don't want to talk about school, no i haven't gotten my license, no i don't have a job but yes, i am looking. i'm not a complete deadbeat. i know what i'm doing but i also know that i'm not living up to expectations. i know that nobody will approve. and the biggest question of all - yes, i still like girls. no, amber and i are not together any longer. yes, i'm FINE.
there's bound to be a debate about our new president. maybe even about prop 8. i don't know if i can handle it. i don't know if i'm ready for this.
maybe i should just. stay. home.
1 comment:
You better come to TG chick-a-dee! I would totally MISS seeing you. Besides the part about you hanging out with Red sounds great...I may need some assistance with the little monkey.
Not to worry too much, he's out of the little phase he was in...I think/hope!
If not, then everyone will be talking about our wild thing! :)
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